Last year I attended an Alpha course with a friend of mine in Belfast. Alpha course is designed for people, just like my friend, who are not following Jesus but interested in learning more about what it might look like to do so. I had been a part of this same course in Atlanta a number of years ago. Since then I had moved to a new city, in a new country, with a new culture and a whole new set of friends. On top of all these changes, in the few years leading up to our move to Belfast, I had gone through some not-so-pleasant experiences within the church I was a part of in Atlanta. I left Atlanta feeling quite “over” the organized church as I knew it.
On the first night of this second Alpha course I attended with my friend in Belfast, they posed a question to everyone. Assuming that there is a God, if you were standing in front of him today and you could ask him one question, what would it be? We went around the circle and each person had a chance share their one question for God. There were plenty of answers all in the same sort of vein… why is there so much pain in the world... if God loves us, why does he allow us to hurt... why does God send people to hell? All of these are legitimate questions, sure. However, in my personal journey with God I have come to terms with the fact that most of these kinds of questions are damn near impossible to answer, so I think to myself why even bother trying? Of course, I’m sure we can all find some answers to some of these questions. After all, Christians are pretty good at backing up our own belief system with scripture. It’s quite interesting to me that for every tough question that someone might have, there are quite often opposing answers, each backed up straight from the bible. I suppose it’s all about personal interpretation.
So when it came to my turn to answer the big question, there was only one burning question for God floating around in my cynical head. Are we, as followers of Jesus, even close to what you intended for your church, or have we completely mucked things up and fallen off the map? The leader of our small Alpha group didn’t like my question. This is perhaps because he, like a lot of Christians, doesn’t like questions that are difficult to answer. I believe the answer to my question is two-sided.
On one hand we have so called followers of Jesus, who have absolutely mucked things up. You don’t have to go far to find people who burned out, hurt, or damaged, largely because of how the church treated them (or depending on the situation, didn’t treat them). Or perhaps you can go to youtube.com and check out some old Robert Tilton videos to see how ridiculous the church can be (the farting pastor is my personal favorite). Wherever you go, you’ll find people who have been broken by the church. It breaks my heart, because I have been in that boat before. I know how it feels to be let down by the church.
On the other hand, there is hope! My friend, Billy, helped us find a new community of people following Jesus. Of course, no one is perfect, but this church is doing an amazing job at loving people. My wife, Reona, and I moved recently to Denver, Colorado. We didn’t know a single person in Denver when we came here. I was “over” doing the church thing and not interested in church hopping. The first week in Denver we came to the Mile High Vineyard. They have embraced us with open arms and shown us true unconditional love. They have helped us transition to a new life in this new city. In the first week we arrived here, I was invited to have coffee with my new friend Peter. During that conversation he told me that he hoped that their church could help me fall back in love with the church, and as a result with Jesus. I nodded in agreement, but in my heart I was sceptical.
Despite myself, I am happy to tell you that this process of falling back in love with the church is happening for me. We have never experienced church like we have at the Mile High Vineyard in Denver. Through this community we are learning to live well, and to love everyone - unconditionally, regardless of who they are, where they come from, where they live, their sexual orientation, race, or religious creed. Our new friends are loving the people in our community day in and day out, in very tangible ways. They are showing us what it means to be the hands and feet of Jesus to our neighbours who need him so desperately. I am learning new things about God, people, and community. These are lessons that I will take with me wherever I go.
My plea to you is, if you are in that boat as so many of us have been, and you are ready to give up on church, DON’T! I promise you, the church of Jesus is alive and well and moving. My prayer for you is that you will find a community of people following Jesus, wherever you live, and that they will help you fall back in love with Jesus and his church. Don’t look in the places we’ve always looked. Look in the margins, in the places no one else wants to look. I am certain that is where you will find what you are looking for!